Processing Threads 2023-25

In 2023 I returned home from an antisemitism rally feeling frustrated and confused. Reactively, I dug out the flag which had evoked these feelings and pulled its threads apart. I then separated the threads by colour and texture- white, blue, white with streaks of blue, and matted murky blue.  Over a two-year period, as and when I had time and energy, I painstakingly rewove the delicate threads into a piece of tightly woven fabric. I initially attempted to reconfigure the flag, but this was an impossible task and a metaphor in itself. Whilst reweaving the threads, I listened to the news- absorbing reports from opposite ends of the spectrum. Working on this piece strained my eyes, mind and heart.

 This piece represents my constant ongoing monologue. I feel like I am in the middle- being pulled back and forth. I feel let down- as though mourning a relationship that was wasn’t as it seemed, I feel like I’m always having to explain my stance- that I’m too one or the other.  I feel drained. Completing this piece hasn’t helped me make sense of my feelings. I can’t see a positive future for these threads.